Untitled (1997)

Lie if ya gotta, just tell me it's okay.
Remind me who loves me, even if it's just lies they say.
I make my passing, whose lives are changed?
It seems where I touch, I leave only pain.
I'm sorry, so sorry, I didn't leave you alone.
Me annoying? I'll be gone, flesh stripped from bone.
I leave now, for college, leave you far far away.
And I can't help thinking, is it better this way?
You tell me you love me, you say I've done good,
so why don't I ever go to your neighborhood?
Maybe college is different, maybe a new circle of friends...
or is this just a cycle that will never end?
A life without legacy, to leave in my place
no wonders for the rest of the human race
I pray and I pray, for a better/diff'rent life
and all that comes back is pain/toil/stryfe
maybe I learn, and I won't expect
You keep your glory, I'll keep the rest.
"I don't mind, really, it's okay
thing'll work out right anyway."
A smile for the pain, silence for the rest.
Chances get rushed by me for the less worthy that'll see
I know for life being good there is no guarentee.
"Oh, they'll be in charge? What's this I hear?
They haven't stopped by for more than a year."
They stand in the light, in the shadows I lurk
"Oh what's that? Just taking credit for al of my work?"
But I'm going now, maybe it's better this way
no more of your lies, I'm leaving today.