Sick And Sad
Went to the corner of second and main
and there was someone there
who mentioned that they hoped
it would rain forever, forever so
they could drown in peace
went down to Hodgkin p.l.
but there was nobody to answer
when I rang that doorbell forever
forever so now I'm sad all the time
sick and sad again.
sometimes I'd like the rain to end
sick and sad again
sometimes I'd like to stand
on my own two feet
today was the day
but she threw it all away
and I could never understand
cause she was never one
to play by the rules
of the game her and me
were so the same
I try so hard and I never give in
and I am never satisfied
until the day that I win
against them but I don't care
I'll follow her to anywhere.

Keasbey Nights
It was the summer of 95
(so what?)
in the backyard
shaving the old plies
feeling so strong
something went wrong
straight into my finger
what a stinger it was so long I still remember
that day like the day that I said
that I swear
"i'll never hurt myself again"
but it seems that I'm deemed to be wrong
to be wrong
to be wrong
so I've got to keep holding on...
they always played a slow song when they come for me
I'll be sitting at my desk
with a gun in my hand
wearing a bulletproof vest
singing my my my
how the time does fly
when you know you're going to die
by the end of the night I still remember when
we were young and fragile then
no one gave a shit about us
because times were tougher then
feeling so good
cruising the hood
straight into the real world
rich kids never understood
but I don't care
I can fade away to anywhere
don't stop because you might get dropped
and if you do
who's going to pick you up
well I won't...
they always played a slow song

Day In Day Out
I don't want to barge in
on your secrecy
see dependency
see it means nothing to me
I don't want to hear
about your problems
and I don't want to listen to your apathy
see you're not like me
see you mean nothing to me
all your cash
doesn't make you any greener
I don't need anyone to tell me
what to feel
I don't need anyone
to hate the world with me
day in day out
it's not that bad
I worry and I worry
but you'll never have to worry again
you'll never be alone
in my room
with a bucket full of phlegm
I don't need a music scene
to tell me who I am
I should have got a warning
should have came a year ago
should I send her a birthday card?
my conscience tells me no
day in day out

Walking Away
Well hello
how are you
won't you pull up a chair?
won't you pull up a chair?
won't you tell me your story
because I really do care
about talking away
here's to me to you to us
to everything
I hope it never falls apart
we're talking away
well you look so fine
and you seem so kind
and I've got to say
that I'm having a good time
dancing away
could things get any better now?
if they can I cannot see how
but as the time goes by
you stop and sigh
you stop and sigh
and then you wonder why
I can't stop this feeling
as I'm walking away
and I could never understand
half the things you'd say
as we're walking away
goodbye to me to you to us
to everything
because it fell apart as we're
walking away
things weren't better then
you felt that you had to pretend
but as the time goes by
you stop and sigh
you stop and sigh
and then you wonder why

Giving Up Giving In
I got no cash
got no girl
but I got the world
in the palm of my hand
and I don't care
if you care
or if you understand
because I'm a little kid
and I've got little problems
and I don't give a shit
if you don't understand because I got me
that's all I need
and I live comfortably
I sleep peacefully I give up
I don't want to hear
I don't want to be
near you or your friends
and your dime a dozen miseries
I don't care if you care
about the way you wear your hair
or your shoes or your idiot attitude
don't stop because
I want to hear your problems
don't you stop
because I want to help you solve them
don't stop.

On & On & On
I still remember that night
it was the fourth of July
it's still engraved in my mind
and I'm not surprised
gang wars no guns
hand to hand
you're black I'm white
he's purple but I still don't understand
I'm going to be alright
I'm going to be okay
everything is going to be fine
back off
I want to be alone
I want to think it out
and I'm thinking that I want to go home
look who's laughing now
I'll pull it off somehow
as I passed her by
I could see her cry
and I'll never forget the look
that was in her eye
and the music you know it played
on & on & on
so will somebody tap her
on the shoulder
tell her life goes on
3 years 2 months 1 week 4 days
I'm always counting down
because there ain't no easier way
trust me you know
that I tried and if I said
it's easy then you know
I told a lie
I'm going to be alright
I'm going to be just fine
one down five billion to go
am I next in line
and do I really want to know?

This One Goes Out To...
Staring out the window
of somebody's pickup truck
well I never mind the boredom
cause I use it for a crutch
just to get me to that plane
it's a different state of sane
and every time I try to change
I always end up quite the same
thinking back to happier days
when everyone was ignorant
and all the kids behaved
but me and my friends and
the ice-cream man
that was our existence that was our clan this one goes out to
the friends I never had
hey I don't understand it
but I'd like to anyway
hey I don't understand it
but I like it anyway
hey I don't understand
but I like you anyway
hey I don't understand shelter in the city
we decided to go in
and I gave a man some money
yeah to buy heroin
but the homeless guy
returned and he gave me back a dime
he said
"put it in your sock my friend
and save it for another time"
but
lessons are learned
and later unlearned
if he knew then what he knows now
well he could rule the world
but I'm not one to judge
what happened yesterday
cause I got me
I got myself
my future is at stake
this one goes out to...

Supernothing
he wakes up
sad again
wonders when the rain will end
she'll act like she don't care
cause to her
it's just a game that he plays I'm a super...nothing... no one...
going nowhere fast but I don't care all the times
he said he would
she never really understood
what he said or what she meant
he won't forget
what wasn't said
he'll find himself alone
standing in the rain

9mm And A Three Piece Suit
Well I know I shouldn't care
but I do and I don't
and I always crack a smile
when I see your punk rock clothes
and you try try but you never fit in
and you're never going to pack it up
pack it in, so there
Steve took three or four
heather took more
she lit a cigarette
and they're walking out the door
with a semi automatic and a ski mask on
and they look to one another
and they say to themselves
"what fun."
well I never want to bother
and I never want to hover
over his or her affairs
because that's not fair
and it seems to me that you're
running out of time and it seems to me
like you're never going to do
what's right
jack dropped 21
Jill 22
the look in his eye said
"brother what are you going to do
with a 9mm and a three piece suit?"
they look to one another and say
"hey motherfucker, who's the fool?"

Kristina She Don't Know I Exist
Not long ago in my high school days
I watched a girl from so far away
but every time she passed me by
I turned my head away and quietly sighed
and when she walked by
her hair would dance a secret tango
that only I could understand
and if she asked me for the time of day
I'd look her in the eyes and quietly say Kristina, Kristina
do you have any clue who I am?
(hell no)
so listen up because I'll tell you once
and I'll explain myself the best that I can
Kristina, Kristina
you don't know me so I'll have to persist
I'm kind of shy so don't wonder why
Kristina
she don't know I exist from class to class I followed her
but I swore I'd leave her undisturbed
and if she ever stopped and turned around
I got so nervous and I stared at the ground
and then one day in photography
I found a contact print that I could not believe
and there she was staring back at me
so I took her home so quietly 1.17.98
it's been a day that I've come to hate
as I walked into the video store
there she stood as my jaw fell to the floor
tapping her toe waiting in line
with a movie and some other guy
why did I bother?
why did I care about this girl named Kristina Behr? Kristina, Kristina
you'll never get to know who I am
this is goodbye so please don't cry
and I'll let you down as softly as I can
Kristina, Kristina
another name to cross off my list
in another life it could have been nice
but Kristina she won't know what she missed

As The Footsteps Die Out Forever
She was diagnosed on a Friday
the kids were almost home
the kids were on their way
back home from school
lying face down in the gutter
of unaccomplished dreams and broken memories
of things to come
"sorry ma'am I really am
I had to break the news
I had to make the phone call to tell you
that you're due you know where
I'll tell you when and I suggest you start living
these next three weeks the best way that you can"
every night for three long weeks
she'd roam the hallways half asleep
and as the footsteps fade away in my mind
I could swear
I could swear
I heard her say
don't wait for me I've got a lot to do
I've got a lot to be and in the end
maybe I'll see you there lost her strength on a Saturday
spent the day in bed
yeah I'm fine it's just the flu
she said with a smile
but when they turned their backs
the tears would flow
she knew she only had a while to live
to breath to be to see to bleed to stand
on her own two weakened feet
"and so I pray everyday
don't take my mother away"
and in the end maybe I'll see you there
you know I'll see you there
and in the end I'll see you there

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you
you try
you try to get by
"you're never going to pull it off"
"you shouldn't even try"
"you're a wet ciagarette"
"you're always second best"
but they're never going to give a shit
about anybody but themselves
you fight
for them to realize
there's more to life
there's more to you
there's more than meets the eye
and when you're done
the battles been won
you sit back, you smile
and this is what you hum
you hum: who-oa

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the years go by
the time it does fly
every single second
is a moment in time
that passes oh, so quick
and it seems like nothing
but when you're looking back
well it amounts to everything
I've got myself
I've got my friends
I've got my little family
but that's not where it ends.
this one goes out to you
it goes out to everyone
it's in the name of honesty
because life has just begun

who-oa

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look around little brother
can you tell me what you see?
you're a big boy now
so take responsibility
you never had it hard
but now it's getting tough
so you whine whine whine
and you say you've had enough
you say I'm full of shit?
that I'm a hypocrite?
I shouldn't talk
when I cant take the advice that I give?
well maybe you're right but open you eyes
the main difference here is that I
try try try