Some important news

Andy and I are splitting up.

We're going to live in the same place until, at the latest, May. I'm urging him to find a roommate so I can move out before then (the lease is up in May), but if not, here I stay.

Next summer, I will live on campus while I take two or three classes I need to complete my degree. At the end of the summer, I plan to move to Raleigh, North Carolina. I sort of doubt I'll stay there forever, but I am looking forward to being close to my family and getting away from Michigan winters.

It's been rough, but I'm not going to write about that. Not here.

Some more news

In fact, I'm not going to be writing here at all, not for a long time. I may go ahead and take the whole thing down, but for now I'll leave it up for hapless wanderers to continue discovering.

I have several reasons for this, the most important being that I don't want to go through what I'm going through publically. It would make wonderful reading, I'm sure, but it's not just my business. It's Andy's as well, and he wouldn't choose to publish his business online.

I have, over the years, become a somewhat more private person. I don't have such a need to tell everyone exactly how I'm feeling, and more and more I'm coming to believe that I'm making the right choice, in that. It has something to do with a need for validation, and I'm glad that need is diminishing. I have taken to keeping a private journal, and my private journal has gained entries at an increasing pace over the past year. I plan to keep that up.

I don't like what I write here, and don't ask me whether that stems from my writing or from the life I'm writing about. It's a little bit of both, but let's assume that I'm ending the journal because of the writing more than because of the life. Part of me is tempted to continue this just because I'm going to be going through so much for a while, and it would be more interesting, but that's an exact reason not to.

I need to step back, to shake up my world. This is a part of that.

It's been great doing this, getting the little bit of feedback I've had, and through this allowing some of my friends to know me better. I may well start another journal, someday far in the future.

For now, if you're used to hearing about my life, you should email me and make it personal. I promise I'll answer.